28 December 2014

Paris in the spring



Firstly, hello. I hope your Christmases were lovely -- in every grand and little way!

Secondly, apologies for the holiday-induced radio silence. 

And thirdly...Robbie surprised me with plane tickets to Paris on Christmas day. We'll be going in the spring...and frankly, I can't even talk about it (to any real extent). I'm still in shock over the whole thing. 

He said this is to make up for all the bad Christmases that came before him. The one where Dad left. The few after that when my mum could not afford presents. Even a tree. The one when I was 16 and someone dear to me decided he would take his life. The truth is that things can't make up for other things. And I wouldn't want new memories to cover up or erase the other less pleasant ones anyway. When it comes down to it. 

But what new memories can do is better than a vanishing act, some magician's illusion; what it is, is real magic. The promise of newness compels me ever onward. It is the strongest elixir to my soul, which so very often clings to things (that hurt). Because I can't not. This is my nature. I have been told this is my downfall. 

But Paris. Paris is a new thing to cling to. 

He tucked the tickets behind a map of Paris in a cylindrical poster container, and I pulled them out, dumbfounded. I think he (and everyone in on the surprise) fully expected me to jump up and down and start screaming, but I was in a literal state of shock. And. Just. Stared. I mumbled, "what? no? is this a joke?" it took me about five minutes to completely digest the details -- the when, the where, the how of it. And then I cried. This is how I react, apparently, to wonderful things. 

In the middle of the night, I woke up, walked calmly to the bathroom. I looked myself in the mirror, watched a big, stupid grin spread from cheek to cheek, and then I jumped up and down for probably three minutes. Then I hobbled back to our darkened bedroom, and attempted to fall back asleep but actually stared at the ceiling for a very, very long time. 

And Paris in the spring is a good reason not to sleep, if you ask me. 

24 comments:

  1. !!! Amazing! What an awesome surprise. You'll have the best time in Paris, it's one of my most favourite cities in the whole world. I love your sentiment
    xox

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  2. What a wonderful Christmas gift to receive. Though it is some time away I hope you enjoy every part of your trip to the beautiful city.

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  3. Pack me in your suitcase? Yes? Ok wonderful.

    In all seriousness though, this is such a joyous thing. Robbie, I applaud you and award you with the highest honourary medal a husband can achieve. You're a keeper! x

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  4. That was beautiful. What a lovely husband you have :)

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  5. Ahhh!!! SO excited for you. I can't even.

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  6. How lovely! You deserve it. I hope you have an amazing time.

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  7. What a lovely surprise! There's no doubt in my mind you two will have the most wonderful time.

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  8. Oh my, that's just so wonderful! You definitely deserve this~

    Vanshi x

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  9. aww, that is so so sweet! I'm already looking forward to seeing your adventures in paris this spring.

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  10. EEEEeeeek! What a fantastic present. I hope you have an amazing time planning the trip out (already excited for the pictures), a great trip, and many more wonderful Christmases to come <3

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  11. Yes, we cannot cover up memories or people, but our life expands with all of them--good and bad.

    The way you described your reaction is so so cute.

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  12. That sounds like one of the best Christmas gifts ever! You have an amazing husband/family. And I'm so happy for you!! :D

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  13. I am so excited for you! I'll have to tell you of all my favorite cafés and nooks and crannies. <3

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    1. Sallie, yes! I am so looking forward to your suggestions, my kindred spirit.

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  15. hahaha that's a perfectly fine reaction... I have a whole section on my blog called "My guide to Paris" if you're interested.
    And I will email you with a proposition you might like... Hope you'll enjoy it! Paris is the best.

    Cheers,
    Valentina
    Valentina Duracinsky Blog>

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  16. I literally can't get over how well you write. What is your secret? : ) Any tips?

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  17. Awww that's lovely!!

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  18. So excited for you!! You will absolutely love every moment. My suggestion for a picture-perfect Paris memory: climb up to the top of the Arc de Triomphe in the evening, watch the sunset over the city and the city lights come alive, and then watch the Eiffel Tower light up and sparkle on the hour as the last rays of sun disappear on the horizon. Bring a bottle of wine and you're set for an amazing evening. :) Amusez-vous bien!!

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  19. such a wonderful surprise. Be sure to take it all in, Paris is always a good idea:)

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  20. I am jumping up and down in anticipation of you going to paris because I know aside from enjoying every moment possible there will be beautiful posts to follow! Please take lots of images and videos and be happy! get a go-pro and strap it on you so you don't have to miss anything! I am so excited for you! and I hope you have the best time ever!!!!! I can't wait to go there one day!! Happy New Year :)

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  21. This post was actually touching. I hope you had a great christmas, you deserve it.

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